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Because I Know You’ll See It on Here

Here we go AGAIN. I have to decide what to do. I don’t know whether this is one of those times for me to keep pushing and stay after it or not. But this time, ” You mean it. ” So now I have to change my frame of mind, change focus, do things differently. I don’t want things to change again, but we obviously want two different things. I’ve been informed about your “deal” of no commitment, no hurt, no love. But its funny cuz thats exactly whats been going on since we kissed in the trader joes parking lot. Of all places. But what happened turned out to be everything you said you didnt want to happen. We fell deep in love, we committed, we loved each other, we kissed, we held hands, we cuddled, we got hurt, we got jealous, we held on to each other, we tried. And now here we are again. You want to be friends, and I want to make you my world. That’s fair i guess. Actually no its not. You cant do this to people. Pulling a 500 Days Of Summer : When it’s bad, we are nothing but friends. But i knew what was going on. I wanted it to change a lot. I wanted it to be equal, input-output. But instead, you kept what was going on with us from people, didn’t say you loved me around anyone but just me, kissed me and held my hand when we were alone, and whatever else. I wanted to do so much for you. Everything you would complain about wanting in your life, and everything you would blog about or tell me you wanted. But I dont want anything to do with you if we aren’t being ourselves and loving each other. I cant do it. It will hurt more. I cant be there while there is another guy. We’ve been there before, and now thats why the song Break Even by the Script tears me apart everytime i hear it. It’s just going to take time I guess. I dont know. I dont know what im going to do anymore. I may fight. I may just go. Go and hope you’ll be there. Be there waiting for me when you are ready. Hope this will all pay off. Hope you’ll miss me. Just hope in general. Idk. I dont know what else i can say. I Do Love You. Thats forsure, if everything else isnt. whatever happens, happens. We’ll see. Knowing us, we’ll be back together soon. I wrote Done=Never on our picture for a reason. Idk. I gotta sleep and figure what im gunna do. Ill text you that i love you and goodnight, maybe there will be a lot more goodnights, or just a couple more Bye’s.

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Our Fights

My one button, you push it
Now it’s “Fuck you, I hate you, I’ll move out in a heartbeat!”
And I leave out and you call me, you tell me that you sorry
You love me, and I love you, and your heart hurts, mine does too
And it’s just words and they cut deep but it’s our world, it’s just us two